God give me a sign!

 

I love my wife. She is amazing and throughout our 47 years of marriage we have had very few "FIGHTS." AND if I am honest I know why we don't fight. She always gives in. IF I have heard her say it once, I have heard her say it one hundred times, "Life is too short to fight over silly things." So, she always gives in. So, for 47 years I have been trained to expect to get my way. This is not necessarily a good thing and the more I reflect on who I am, I am not proud of my stubbornly getting my way. As a matter of fact, I have realized that is exactly how I am with God. For most of my life I have expected God to shape his will around my desires instead of how it should be, me seeking his will and his desires for my life. 

So, as I have gotten older I have become more obsessed with doing the will of God. I know that sounds righteous, but it is not. I have seen how I can get caught up in MY OWN WILL, my own desires, and how I try to twist God's will to make MY WILL HIS. I find myself often SEEKING A SIGN from God to confirm the path I am on. And guess what, God has been so gracious in providing those signs. They are not earth shattering signs like stopping the movement of the Sun and Moon. I have not gotten signs in miraculous ways. But, they are signs!

King Ahaz of Judah was told by the Lord to ask for a sign and read what he did:

"Later, the Lord sent this message to King Ahaz: 'Ask the Lord your God for a sign of confirmation, Ahaz. Make it as difficult as you want -- as high as heaven or as deep as the place of the dead.' But the king refused. 'No,' he said, 'I will not test the Lord like that.' The Isaiah said, ' Listen well, you royal family of David! Isn't it enough to exhaust human patience? Musts you exhaust the patience of my God as well/ All right then, the lord himself will give you the sign. Look! A virgin will conceive a child! She will give birth to a son and will call him Immanuel (which means 'God is with us') By the time this child is old enough to choose what is right and reject what is wrong, he will be eating yogurt and honey. For before the child is that old, the lands of the two kings you fear so much will both be deserted." (Isaiah 7:10-16, NLT)

I am amazed King Ahaz rejected God's offer to send a sign. In my old age I am constantly asking for signs of confirmation that I am doing God's will. I am tired of doing my own will and ending up with less than the best in my life. The older I get the more I rely on the goodness of God to guide me and direct my path. Since I have yielded to the Almighty, life sure has gotten so much better. I live so much more at peace with the world and with myself. I should have done that earlies. Maybe I should even try yielding more to STEPHANIE. LOL! 

Heavenly Father, Please forgive my stubbornness of years past, always wanting my own will instead of yours. I praise you, Lord, for watching over me and not letting my own stubborn will get in the way of your perfect plan for my life. Now more than ever I need you. I need your wisdom, your strength, and your powerful hand of guidance as I pursue a life of ministry. Please Lord, don't let me mess this up by following my own desires of the heart. Give me signs along this path that look a lot like bread crumbs that I just can't get wrong. I love you Father. Amen!